生于忧患 死于安乐

2008-11-16 0:51:00

无聊时在豆瓣傻逛居然看到了这个...QQ十年?

本来以为自己的号也十年了吧?后来才想起来,从家中有一电脑起,我还那么纸牌扫雷了一年多,这才给网上.这其实是我第二个号,好象吧,我记性从小就不好,密码什么的更是随意拿来,所谓死了活该.

看看那数字,8还带个点三.这近似数也算是十的数字本来让我停顿了一下,别扭了一下,回忆了一下,文艺了一下,然后该干嘛干嘛.我终究是个缺心眼的人.

 

生于忧患,死于安乐

安乐得我快要生出伪忧患.混混恶恶,这个四字词语从我认识它时就经常念叨,直到现在还是阴魂不散的仿佛影子一般的存在,是身心的写照,是状态的映射.

每天的生活是,宿舍---食堂---教室,最多出个超市,还有什么?还可以有的什么似乎在我的生活里都不曾出现过,从前没有,现在也没有.现在我的每一天,是小学初中高中的延续,是我的一部分...我脑海中的恶性肿瘤.也许是习惯了单调的重复,也许是害怕那些迷乱未知的色彩.

发呆让我痴呆,痴呆让我继续发呆.你看到的是我,满身衣服的类人猿.眼泪变成了嘴角那条流淌着的新鲜唾液,话语则是我看向你的那道呆滞目光.我活着的身体里面是,我假死的或者根本不曾生出的灵魂,以及厚重的脂肪.厚重的脂肪,填塞着厚重的脑颅,清醒是隧道尽头那束唯一的希望之光....近在眼前,触手不及...

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我涂- -

2008-11-15 3:14:00

想着,好不容易有个上网还能用涂鸦板的机会...不涂是不行的!!但是...好吧我没耐心...

另...早晨起床第一眼看到的不是就在眼前的贴着旧报纸等时间残留物的半腐烂床板而是家里高高的白色天花板真好真好真好真好真好真他喵的好

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如此而已

2008-10-25 23:41:00

到哪里都是一样,充满烦躁的内心不会因为时间地点而改变,持续了那么久的它仿佛成了我脑海中根深蒂固的一部分.

我回来了,内心与胃成反比;我回去了,内心与胃成正比.所以去哪儿也不是,所以退回角落,所以蜷起身子,所以将头深深地埋下去.

不过都是那不断膨胀的我的无趣.

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无题

2008-10-25 1:18:00

请输入日志访问密码：

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继续APOCALYPTICA

2008-9-30 23:51:00

在宿舍听MP3音量调到十耳朵会疼!...于是...我爆破了..............

 Apocalyptica  feat Sandra Nasic------------------path

Apocalyptica feat Ville Velo ------------- bittersweet

 Apocalyptica  feat Linda Sundblad----------- faraway

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Apocalyptica feat Adam Gontier---- I Dont Care

2008-9-14 18:50:00

　啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..............泪奔

I try to make it through my life
in my way
there's you
I try to make it through these lies
that's all I do
Just don't deny it
Just don't deny it and deal with it
yeah~Just deal with it
You try to break me,
You wanna break me...bit by bit,
That’s just part of it
If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
And all the things you left behind
I don't care, I don't care
I try to make you see my side
Always trying to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do
I'm getting tired of this shit
I've got no room when it's like this
What you want of me just deal with it
If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
And all the things you left behind
I don't care, I don't care
(nothing can care about, nothing can care about)
(you won't be there for me, you won't be there for me)
If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
And all the things you left behind
I don't care, I don't care
If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
And all the things you left behind
I don't care, I don't care

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鼠标是体力活

2008-9-14 1:27:00

背景无能T T

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